Similar to my addiction to Discovery, History Channel, and similar cable channels I've gotten hooked on UWTV, the two University of Washington TV cable channels available locally. Generally I enjoy watching the medical Grand Rounds (I'm not a doctor, I have no idea why these fascinate me so much) and assorted lectures, one of my favorite being on Bioethics.
Recently they started showing a series of lectures from October by Dr. Lawrence H. Shiffman on the Dead Sea Scrolls. I'm not Jewish, I'm not religious or even spiritual, but I'm utterly fascinated by the lectures. Dr. Shiffman's presentation style and the very interesting content of the lecture just suck me in and I can't escape, I've now watched the first lecture in the series three or four times I would happily watch it again.
This morning I woke up from a very strange dream with pain in my side, it felt like the right side of my lower back had seized up and was not letting go. It was among the worst pain I've ever experienced, and once my wife spent some time walking on my back to work it out and I took some leftover muscle relaxant from the last time I had similar problems... it was not getting better at all. I could not find a way to sit, lay, stand, move, or anything that would lessen the pain (I usually can with muscle problems).
Scared that I had slipped a disc or something along those lines, I agreed to go to the ER.
Long story short, I have a kidney stone. Let me give you the rundown:
0 Percosets: Incredible pain that defies description.
1 Percoset: It only feels like someone has stabbed me in the side and is twisting the knife for fun.
2 Percosets: It feels like I've got a deep muscle ache, like a healing torn muscle or something like that.
By way of perspective, the ER doctor told me the following: Women who had been through both child birth and kidney stones said that kidney stones were the more painful of the two.
I managed to sleep for a couple or three hours before the painkillers wore off tonight and I woke up yet again to strange dreams trying to work the massive pain into the narrative. I suspect that's how my night will go.
Tomorrow I try to get some doctor appointments at my GP and a urologist, and see how to survive until I manage to pass this thing.
It is tempting to say, being in the early stages of a startup and pushing hard to get the product ready to launch, that the timing could not be worse. That would be naive, it could very easily be much worse, but regardless it is bad timing. The trick now is to figure out what valuable things I can get done under the influence of narcotic painkillers that I don't have to spend a bunch of time later cleaning up after.
I'm now officially slightly less coy about what I'm working on!
I've co-founded a tech startup with Bryan Starbuck, no real name yet. It turns out naming is a very difficult problem, and we haven't found a name we're absolutely in love with yet that isn't already taken due to trademark reasons or the domain name not being available.
Can't say anything more about it yet, hopefully not too much longer.
My insomnia has been pretty bad recently. Had food poisoning while back in Colorado for X-mas, and weirdly that almost helped because I was so sick I spent a lot of time sleeping, plus my family was kind enough to leave me alone and let me recover. If I had been well but sleep deprived I wouldn't have had so much time to nap and such.
It has been slow recovering, been about a week and I'm eating normally again but my stomach is still touchy. Not the worst food poisoning I've ever had but a solid, respectable second.
We've got a shift now at work where I'll be working less from home and more from the office for a while, but the timing sucks. Went home at only 5pm tonight because I wasn't sure I'd be safe to drive if I waited a lot longer, but despite being dead tired I can't sleep.
At some point soon I'm just going to have to finally get to sleep and ride it as long as I possibly can, maybe Saturday.
I see signs of myself recovering from the state I was in at Microsoft, though. Spent New Years Day cleaning up my home office for the first time in many years, worked on organizing our finances, I'm becoming interested in investing again for the first time in a while, and my urge to play computer games as my default idle activity is dropping a lot.
It is amazing the clarity into a situation you get once you're removed from it for a while, I knew I wasn't terribly happy while I was there but I just had no idea how bad of shape I was in.